overdosed

Kakasimula pa lang ng week... Grabe, parang 10 araw na sunod sunod na kong nagtratrabaho with 4 hours OT. Ala naman akong magawa dahil kailangan. Kaya kahit halos mamaga na yung finger tips ko sa kakatype sa keyboard kaya kinakaya pa rin kasi "I love my job kasi I need my job." Naiisip ko minsan kung hindi pa natatakot sakin yung mga tao sa labas, tuwing dadaan ako papasok sa building at makakakita sila ng zombie sa umaga. Minsan sa sobrang inis mo pa eh, gusto mo nalang ihgis yung mouse ng computer at hugutin ang monitor sa itapon sa bintana. Buti nalang may yosi na pwede hithitin para ibuga lahat ng sama ng loob at stress sa katawan pero kulang pa din eh. Yung maata ko na kulang nalang eh lumuwa kakatingin sa mga files na nakaopen sa computer.

HAAYYYY!!!! Sana pwedeng sumigaw sa opisina at sabihing "pagod na pagod na ko!" Grabe na ang pressure nyo! Kung maglalagay ka siguro ng karne ng baka sa upuan ko, 10 minutes palang malambot na sa sobrang pressure. Oo nga pala, OT lover na din ako nga yun, TY nalang ang kapalit!

I'm work OVERDOSED...

-evah

Ang katotohanan

Alang mangyayari kung puro nalang silay sa crush at mangalap ng impormasyon ang gagawin ko. Naisip ko na dapat gumawa din ng paraan para mapansin nya. Hindi naman siguro ako dapat mag otso otso sa harap nya kapag daraan sya. Isang simpleng "hi" lang ok na. Di ko nga lang alam kung paano ko sasabihin dahil tiyak kong magugulat sya kapag sinabi ko yun at di nya ko kakilala. Kamusta naman ang mukha kong namumula at ang ngiting abot batok na may kasabay na pangingisay nung pinaabot ko sa kakilala nya ang aking mensahe, tinanung nya tuloy kung sino nagpasabi. Nabanggit nyang taken na sya at kasal, syempre hindi na nabanggit kung sinu yung nagpasabi at nanatili nalang akong the who. Well... Ang labi ko na umabot hanggang batok ay kala mo gomang bumalik sa dating ayos sabay buntong hininga ng malalim.

Ganun talaga ang buhay, minsan yung gusto mo hindi pwedeng maging sa'yo. Kahit siguro maglupasay ka sa EDSA sasagasaan ka lang ng pison pero di mo makukuha yun. Sabi ko nalang, ok lang yun, kahit na medyo nalungkot ako, which is totoo naman dahil sobra akong humanga sa kanya pero di naman sobrang hurt dahil wala naman dapat ikaw hurt. Medyo defensive lang ang dating pero hindi (lol). It's a good thing narin at nalaman ko ng maaga para alam ko din kung anu ang dapat gawin. Lumapit ako sa kakilala ko na kilala din nya para sa isang sulyap. Konting kwentuhan pero ang goal ay para mapansin. Nakita ko sya napatingin sakin, nung nagbend ng likod sabay tingin sa kaliwa. Di lang minsan pero tatlong beses, syempre sa pangatlong beses tinignan ko din sya. Kung ayaw mo makuha sa hi, makuha kaya kita sa tingin? (lol) Joke lang yun, wag na bigyan ng kahulugan. Pero malay natin... Abangan.... (hahaha)


-evah

Torpe Part 2

Ngunit, naitatanong ko rin sa aking sarili, ito ba'y pag-ibig o sadyang paghanga lamang? Mahirap isipin, at sadyang napakaskit malaman ang katotohonan. Ang katotohonang bumabalot sa aking pagkatao, na ako'y mayroon nang iba, subalit ako'y sadyang naakit pa rin sa'yo.

Tama ba ang nararamdaman kong ito? Dapat na ba akong gumawa ng isang bagay upang iyong malaman ang aking nararamdaman? O dapat ako'y maghintay at hayaan na lamang na ito'y lumipas?

Sana, ako'y maliwanagan sa tamang kasagutan. Ngunit, sa ngayon, hahayaan ko muna ang aking bruskong damdamin na nanamnamin ang masayang pakiramdam sa aking nadarama sa kasalukuyan...

Torpe

Iba talaga ang feeling kapag nakikita mo yung crush mo. Andyan yung halos mangisay ka na sa sobrang kilig at para kang kiti-kiti sa upuan mo. Pinagmamasdan mo sya sa malayo at mistulang giraffe at halos mabali leeg mo masilayan lang sya. Yung mga matang mong parang surveillance camera na nakafocus lang sa kanya habang pinagmamasdan mo ang bawat kilos nya at para mo na siyang hinaharass sa sobrang titig mo. Andyan yung mapapakanta ka nalang bigla ng love song at minsan na e-LSS ka pa sa huling kantang maririnig mo sa labas. Higit sa lahat, kahit sobrang pangit na ng araw mo, lulutang ka sa tuwa kapag nakita mo na sya. At standing ovation ang next move mo kapag hindi mo na makita ang hibla ng buhok nya sa malayo sabay mapapabuntong hininga ka at sa isip isip mo sana magkalapit lang kayo ng upuan para d na mahirapan ang nangangalay at naghahaba mong leeg kakasilip.

Aaminin ko na at hindi ko naman ipagkakaila. Gusto kita pero hindi ko alam kung pano ako lalapit sa'yo. Siguro kung mababasa mo 'to mas madali na para sa'kin para malaman mo na "gusto kita" or mas maganda siguro kung sabihin kong "I'm into you." Pasesnya na, kulang pa ko sa lakas ng loob para sabihin sa'yo ng harapan, kaya isusulat ko muna kung anu nararamdaman ko. Kung alam mo lang kung ga'no ko kagustong makilala ka ng lubusan. Di ko masabi kung simpleng crush lang ba ito o mas malalim pa. Kung lagi kang nasa isip ko at mapapangiti na lamang tuwing maaalala ko ang maamo mong mukha, anu nga kaya itong nararamdaman ko? Ang corny noh? Nabihag mo nga yata ako....


-evah

Sleeplessness and Tiresome

My head is throbbing with pain caused by just 3 hrs of sleep due to over work. I just want to cry right now. Not because of weakness but because of rage. I want to shout and knock somebody out so I can ease the anger but I really don’t want to be put in jail just because I had little sleep.

I just want to carry my bags and leave this fucking room. I want to go home where I can have peace and sleep. But no, I can’t, not if I want to lose my job. Well maybe I want to lose my job but I don’t want them to get rid of me. I want to be the one to get rid of them.

Heavy breathing… that’s just what I do…. I need to breathe air so I won’t pass out. I’M FUCKING TIRED!!! Isn’t 9 hours of work enough for you people? WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE YOU TRYING TO DO?? I didn’t sign up to work in a sweat shop for crying out loud!

Dialled his number… didn’t pick up. Phone vibrating… Tears run down my face… I’m tired. I wanted him to hear it because he will understand. Sobbing…

I need a break… a long break…

-asstah

Be ready to be stricken by lightning!

Yeah. I know I'm being a righteous person to tell you this. But let me clear things before I start. I am not being a Pontius Pilate here. I am not washing my hands of any wrong doing that I have done to other people. I am actually challenging every person who's going to read this blog and tell me if you have not wronged any person in your entire life! I am going to build you a pedestal. ROFL.

Anyhow, this blog is my first in this account. This is a collaboration of twisted, funny, narcissistic, whatnots compositions by the members of the sikwet society. We are the most odd group of people you'll ever meet. You'll just have to stick around for more crazy and wacky ideas.

I'm having a short memory loss. I just read my first paragraph and the second and they don't even connect. hahahaha. Now you see? And that's just me being crazy! Wait till you see other blogs from other secret society members. :P

I hafta go now. I think someone wants to write. See yah around! :)


-asstah

Succubus

I've seen lot of movies and heard a lot of stories about demons. And it catched my attention when I heard about a demon called "succubus." What are they? They are demons who takes a form of a beautiful woman that can be seen on dreams and seduce a man for a sexual intercourse. They draw energy from men to sustain themselves then eventually lead the victim to death.

You might be asking the relevance of their existence in our fast paced and growing world. Do they really exist? The answer is YES. They are everywhere. Well, not the demonic type that has nasty horns, alluring body with wings like bats and wants erotic intercourse (pwede rin.. hihi). You don't need supernatural power to see them. They walk, live, eat and work with us. They are capable of manipulating others as if it feeds their hunger. They can turn you upside down when no one is looking. They seem to be friendly but they are slamming your ass out. They could be your ally but they intentionally want you to be part of their plan so they can lie on top of you. It's best to be cautious on how to interact with this kind of individuals; because a wrong move will let them suck you dry. It is their life to make a fool out of others and grin or let out a sinister laugh. I know for a fact that these being exists. Look around, you might found one...

-Evah